My Blue Jay
My most difficult times have brought me to a place where God gives me the gifts of nature to show me that it will be alright. It gives me peace and calmness that is lost to me at times.
Today was such a day.
The circumstances in our lives are dictated to us not by the losses and pain of each experience, but by the joy we find in our most difficult times.
My day yesterday was filled with excruciating pain in my heart.
The pain was not physical as much as it was something that was attacking the soul of who I was.
I have no control over people who for whatever reason cause us pain. I do have control over how I will deal with it.
The tears have to come first to cleanse the soul and wash away the pain, Then I analyze the source and come to a place where I realize that I am not steering this ship. God is.
Each experience brings me closer to where God wants me to be.
Once I realized that I alone would be contributing to my own pain if I continued . I made the decision to give it all to God. He knows me better than I do. I had to trust his instincts not mine.
The answer that I had made the right decision came in the form of a Blue Jay...who flew right on my top step of my porch..
He flew back and forth, almost as if to keep me focused on him. He sat for a while, then flew into the tree.
My heart and mind were again in harmony.
I felt at peace.
My messenger from God had accomplished the task of giving me peace.
May 8th 2010